There was a time in your life, during which you lost yourself.
For most people, this period is at most a few seconds long.
But for you, it seems to last longer, in fact it seems constitutive.
You've heard of people healing from The Disease, but you never found a way through.
Here you are and... do you even want to "get better"?
It doesn't look like it. If I'm not mistaking you are actually confortable in the chaos.
Do you even remember what your name was, before The Disease?